I was sitting in bed the other night with my husband when I heard this shocked, "whoa" come from his mouth. He was looking at pictures from years ago so I couldn't imagine what was so shocking but when I looked over it was a picture of me, a me he had obviously almost forgotten.
I looked at the picture and said, "yep. Pretty disgusting...It must be true that love is blind." I was thinking how in the world did anyone ever love me? I obviously didn't care about myself. I had flashbacks to the times when i realized my clothes weren't fitting and I kept seeing the girl in this picture even though my clothes were literally falling off of me. I remember vividly the day last fall when I finally saw a different me in the mirror.
Then, I turned my emotions from sad and repulsed to thankful. I'm so thankful that I've had this journey. I have a story that has inspired people to lose weight and hopefully will continue to inspire people to lose weight. I pray that it's enough to keep me from falling into bad habits again because I never want to be the girl in that picture. I still catch myself changing how i hold my head so I won't have a double chin or so I'll look thinner...things overweight people figure out to hang onto a thread of a positive self image. Praise be to God for placing some very key people in my life to save my life! Praise be to God for strength and determination!
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